Addiction (I Understand)

This was my last time trying to convince myself to quit.
I had surrendered, prepared the ways to be okay with this in the future.
My "inspiration" I called it.
3rd generation alcoholic/addict
Yup it was on.
As I sat in the car, and Micheal Jackson's "I can't help it" played on.
I understand I cried.
I understand.