Sometimes I think people tell you to pray
because they don't have the answer.
Its a distraction maybe.
I think the biggest mistake in my life
was considering life without God.
Cause now I believe it, a little.
In bed crying in the pillow cause
I'm leading a God less life.
What is my purpose, my aim?
I have to be sedated to exist in this mundane life.
"It wont be like this always"
Has become my mantra.
"I think I need help"
written on the walls of my brain.
I can't do this anymore
And I can't do it alone.
The loneliness is coming for me.
But I feel like it never really left.
It's almost comforting to see something so consistent in my life.
I'm hollow, empty, void of something
You can hear it when the wind blows through me.
I've tried to fill it with "work" "jobs" "clothes"
....I'm afriad to try men.
But in the end...I'm always
Alone.
