Sleep

She awoke with the taste of sleep in her mouth.
It was stuck in the back of throat, and made her parched for more.
Lazily her eyelashes moved, her limbs where heavy with the drug of fatigue pulsing though her veins.
She moved her arms to one side of her body and lifted her knees to the sky.
It was a weird and vain attempt to get out of bed.
Eventually she gave up, sleep had won, and class would just have to go on without her today.
Rolling onto her stomach, she got tangled in the sheets.
Too sleepy to fix them, she let them choke her into a dream world.
She didn't mind though.

She had no intention of waking up.

So do it...

I wanted to write a poem tonight.
But my life got in the way.
Too busy doing shit to actually
think about what I was doing
Process it.
Flip and reverse to make it sound pretty.
Ahem..
Sometimes, it just hits you.
That these are the moments.
Moments in which life is all about.
Its about those endless almost sober drunk nights of driving.
With a nice soundtrack.
Its about what you have now,
not what you wish to get.
Its about being good in the moment,
not anticipating the next time you can have fun.
Participating fully into what your doing,
dreams are fun, but they're not life.
They're not even real yet.
Do it now, and feel it forever, before its over.
I learned the lesson fast.
Whether it comes to love or life.
Do it now, the next time may not exist.

Showers

On a gray rainy day
When black women
In their scarves and sweatpants
Travel to shops to get their hair done
I sat beside my window
And watched my reflection in the glass
The rain dropped and mimicked tears on my face
I sniffle at the sight
It been so long since I cried
Its been so long since I wanted too
The wind whipped branches along the balcony
The strong smell of spring in the air.
That salty intoxicating smell of rain
I could die like this I thought
Right now? I said to myself.
Just like this.
Perfectly content in the early spring rain on the outside of my window
Happy with the smell of the green grass.
Alone in the world.

Part Two

I took a shower in the dark once.
Pitch black, save for a single water proof flashlight
That sat on the toilet and created a silhouette
Fog rising and water falling
Hot steam on a naked body.
I felt alive and aware
as i showered in the dark,
Glistened in the dark
Chased the droplets of water on my skin in the dark.
I had to feel my way around my own body like never before
Reach for my toes and hope they're there
Feel the soap slide down my back and know its getting clean.
Trust my hands to do what
My eyes were trained to.
The climax came when the shower concluded.
Standing in front of a flashlight
Naked
Wet
Shining in all my glory
In the dark.

Silly Me.

I never would have ever imagined it would be this hard.

How naive of me.

Finger pricked with blood from the cherry tree.
The pain brings me to reality
Got my mind running track
Finding a way, needing a map.
Fucking my poetry up too,
I can’t even writing about anything but you.
Can stop rhyming either.
Cant stop crying either.
Can’t stop trying either.
Fuck you, for not caring either way.
You just keep on twisting and pulling and pushing.
And I see that shit everyday.
I just can’t see me leaving you alone.
Loving you is like,
Not being able to walk away from a bomb.
Seeing the car on its way
I can feel the impact before it happens
But I just can’t pull over fast enough
Cant pump my brakes to save my life
I wanna scream and get out
But I’m trapped in the flames.
And they burn so good.
I just want to hold your smoldering bones
In my soul.
Let your ashes decorate the skin on my eyelids
So when I close my eyes and die
I still see you.
Snort the ashes on the broken rearview mirror
So when I overdose I still breathe you
You’ll linger in my bloodstream so
When I flex, I can still squeeze you.
Damn, I feel like I need you.
And the feelings not equal.

I'm Trying, But What are You doing....

I'm tryna touch your soul boy...

But I can't reach it.
Can't travel light-years to see it
Just wanna be there for you
But we won't make it.
I know this love can't grow anymore
So why fake it.
I know you said we was goin be good
But your half of the deal wasn't
And I'm not psychic
But I saw this end coming...

They might be Gods

*** wrote this on the fly while doing homework, but i like it, but it still might change.***



He stands so still
While the winter breaks the
Rest, he leans
Against a building
Inhales a black smoothly
He's seen it all
He's just as cold as the rest
Of us, but can't show it
His pride is my guess
He is built Ford tough
But rides like a Caddy
Lips part in a timeless exhale
He is just too much.
The wind doesn't dare blow his
Way.
I want to stand behind him
To be protected from the wind
From the world
I want to stand behind him and warm his cold back
Kiss his cold neck
Revive his cold heart.
If I I could only get close enough.
Men like him are so distant.
Always walls surrounding their hearts
Always pride in the way
Always excuses for why they can't say "I love you"
But they can show it.
In the way they look at you
Touch you, let you touch them
Protect you from the wind, from the world
If you ever get the chance to stand behind them.
Stay there.
Don't fight it, its as close to heaven as you'll get while your still alive.
Auras like ancient kings
Who were thought to be Gods
But there are no doubts when I stand behind him...
he may look like a man
But he could be a God.

Stay Right Here

I just wanna stay right here
Can I live on the cusp of this reality
for the rest of my reality?
Can I recycle my breath
and retain these sights for later use?
I don't wanna grow up no more
I take it all back.
Let me just stay right here
In my room on my bed
Staring at the wall
Grasping each second that
passes through my fingers
Trying not to move
Because movement equals
progress and progess equals
Time Lasped
and...
I just wanna stay right here
Laying under you
Letting your weight crush
all doubts and uncertainties about
how we feel for each other
Can you stay right here
Can you never get on that flight
and leave?
Can we stay intertwined in each other
Let time stop like a traffic jam
All around us
Let this moment expand until it goes
all around the world and comes back twice
Kissing you with a new found appreciation
cause our time has come
And we both realized it
was too short
Can I just stay right here
sitting on my sisters bed.
Laughing like only we can
Or fighting like only we can
Can each laugh hit notes
in the universe that allow the
God of time to make it stop
just for the rest of my little life
Can I just remind her of an inside joke
that sends us in a secret frenzy
only for eternity?
Can I just stay right here?
Can my tears take years to drop
So that I appreciate every salty
particle they contain?
Maybe if i write this poem
long enough it
can immortalize
and account for
every seconds that's past?
Can I just stay right here?
Cause life just moves too fast...