Chase that Franco!

Shoutout to Diamond Newman at chasefranco.com for featuring me. Check her out. She's another City alum, really out there doing her thing and inspiring the masses. She featured me for my final art project; a collage entitled, "me and kia"

Scared to Love, Scared Not to

Check out ajamonet's EP "Scared to Love, Scared Not to....

Imani Cole?

new blog name?

Possibly.

shout out to http://itssimplytrishh.blogspot.com/ for the idea.

You Goin Fuck Up

Put your feeling before mine?
Think of you first?
These ideas seem so strange to me, its plain to see that I didn't know what I was getting into when I dialed your number
Thought nothing off it
Still flirting like its summer
Still dreaming of my distant lover
Not knowing you had plans for me.
Bigger than I had for myself
Everything you said you were gonna do you did
You truly are something else.
The situation is getting crucial
And I'm doing things I've never done before
Learning myself in ways that only happens when you encounter another
When you discuss private thoughts that otherwise would have never slipped through my lips
Passionate kisses affecting me in ways that I can't explain
Confusion abounds because it was never supposed to go this far.
And I always say whatever happens
As if I can truly go with the flow
But only when I already know the stream of water I'm floating in
Its so hard for me to do this.
I just don't know why, I'm trying to down play because I've always been shy.
But I don't know what I'm doing.
I don't want to hurt you but
I got the feeling that
I'm goin fuck up, a lot.
So, let this be a warning.
And don't say I never told you.

Addiction (I Understand)

This was my last time trying to convince myself to quit.
I had surrendered, prepared the ways to be okay with this in the future.
My "inspiration" I called it.
3rd generation alcoholic/addict
Yup it was on.
As I sat in the car, and Micheal Jackson's "I can't help it" played on.
I understand I cried.
I understand.

Tuesday Night

Sometimes I think people tell you to pray
because they don't have the answer.
Its a distraction maybe.
I think the biggest mistake in my life
was considering life without God.
Cause now I believe it, a little.
In bed crying in the pillow cause
I'm leading a God less life.
What is my purpose, my aim?
I have to be sedated to exist in this mundane life.
"It wont be like this always"
Has become my mantra.
"I think I need help"
written on the walls of my brain.
I can't do this anymore
And I can't do it alone.
The loneliness is coming for me.
But I feel like it never really left.
It's almost comforting to see something so consistent in my life.
I'm hollow, empty, void of something
You can hear it when the wind blows through me.
I've tried to fill it with "work" "jobs" "clothes"
....I'm afriad to try men.
But in the end...I'm always
Alone.

Big Mistake #2 "Chipotle"